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Monday, 08 February 2010

  • Not so much hiatus.

    But I want to take a break from my current way of life.

    I don't want to keep doing what I'm doing. I feel sort of like I'm stuck in some sort of in between. Does that make sense? I don't fully feel like ME and I don't fully feel like I'm doing what I want, slash, need to be doing in order to be ME. I feel like I need a HUGE change of pace and/or direction.

    I think I need to get away from "people who know me" for a little while.

Saturday, 06 February 2010

Thursday, 04 February 2010

  • Here's what I hate about my friend's man friend (besides him being constantly around): They get along great. I know I've heard them talking and laughing and everything sounds great. But as soon as I go downstairs and am around, he is going to get weird and awkward (which is horribly annoying) which puts her on edge and annoys the shit out of me making me not all that friendly. I really can't handle him right now, but I want coffee....

Saturday, 30 January 2010

  • Life, the Universe.

    Things are not so bad right now. Went through that weird, whyamIhere? portion of the winter (because winter sucks!) but now it's almost February - the coolest month of the year - and almost my birthday and things are pretty good. Still don't know what I'm going to be doing in the fall, but that's ok. I've got a little bit of time to get my act together and break the news to people that I don't want to stick around New England much longer (not that I don't love it, but that, well, girlie needs some change).

    Speaking of change and things being good again: Fairly certain work people like me. Which is nice. I fear, often, that the people I work with and don't know very well don't like me very much. After the whole GS Camp A-List bullshit shenanigans occurred I'm generally on edge with people I don't know very well. But Lindsey told me the other night that she doesn't want me to go and started talking about having some GSD people over for dinner at her house one night. That would be rad. The more time I spend with Lindsey the more I like her. She also asked if I would babysit her daughter. Also: the new name tags came in the other day and my boss asked me if I feel like I belong. I was honest with her: I said "I don't feel like I don't belong". But it's hard to reconcile the fact that I'm only here for four months. So I'm not really trying all that hard to belong at work. I'm not necessarily trying to come back here: ever, but I certainly don't want to burn any bridges.

    I've reconciled the "fights" I was in a week or two ago. Which is nice. I really don't like confrontation.

    Matty is in Florida until Sunday. Jerk. For WORK. This is the first winter since about the third grade where I have been able to get excited about SNOW merely because the ease of my job depends upon there being a lot of good cold snowy weather. Except today we're fairly certain it's actually too cold. The high today is 11 degrees and at the resort its -2. Awesome. I just can't wait to go to work this afternoon!

    At least the sun is shining! Yay!

Thursday, 14 January 2010

  • And It's My Sister's Birthday!

    + Went downhill skiing for the first time today.

    - The boots suck.

    + Saw a really cool rainbow in the clouds. Noticed it the first time I fell down my first time down the learning hill.

    + Fell down a lot on both the learning hill and the smaller mountain. It was awesome.

    - Getting up again sucks.

    +- Went grocery shopping hungry afterwards.

    + Ran into the Musher kid from Amherst.

    + Ate food + showered.

    + Am wearing a really sad tee shirt. Fits great!

    + Got to go repaint my nails before work at 3pm. Yah, they're black. Like my heart . . . kidding . . . .

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